I could count on my campus being beautiful all year round (even though it was a pain to hike through it to class in the winter), I count count on never getting a good parking lot and having to walk forever up hills to my apartment/car, I could count on my friends to be there for me through it all, or the gym to be crowded every time I went (and after eating the awful food, I needed to go to the gym, trusttt me). I know those don't seem like big things to count on, but there was a sense of security in being at school.
Now that I'm done, it's like this air of uncertainty hanging over my head.
The job market for teaching in Jersey (and anywhere, really) is just awful, so the chances of me living at home for life are pretty high... it's just this depressing, scary time in my life when I feel like we've all just grown up way too fast.
The last few weeks of school, I made a conscious effort to make the most of it, and not to sit around and be lazy, but to get out and enjoy everything with my friends. We all knew that even though this wasn't goodbye, things would probably never be the same with us again.
The free week before graduation was filled with nights out, dinners out, taking roomie pictures around campus (thanks J, my fave photographer!), celebrating birthdays and graduation, and of course, cleaning out all the crap from the apartment.
Last "College Night" out at Rock Bottom (tear, tear).
Roomie (minus one) photoshoot around campus... for some reason we kept singing "And we're the three best friends that anyone could have". Thanks, Hangover.
This one is my favorite. J got a lot of candids of us :)
Senior Awards Dinner with my brother and J:
C's fiance turned 21 the night before graduation, so we obviously still had to go out and celebrate :)
My two bff's:
And of course, the big day (P.S. the little green tree pin means that anyone who has one signed a form promising to be environmentally conscious in their life outside of college - we have a very "green" campus - 100% powered by wind energy!).
And then, I had to say goodbye to my roomie and bff of four years...
For now, I'm taking it as it comes, trying not to get too upset and depressed over the fact that come August, I won't have the familiar faces to return to, my little car packed as full as it can get with bins and suitcases (mostly of clothes and shoes)... I'm taking the memories, and remembering the good times.
While the future is still inevitable and scary, I'm trying to think of the positives... because honestly, it's that or becoming entirely too worried to function.
I'm happy to say that I can look back on the past four years with very few negative memories of things. I'm truly blessed to have shared so much with the people I've met!
Sorry (again) for all the pictures! I guess putting them up just makes me nostalgic, in a good way :)
**After Thursday, you definitely won't hear from my for at least two weeks because... I'll be in China teaching English in a university outside of Beijing! I'll be doing my best to "visit" you all before I head over early o'clock on Thursday morning!
I'll look forward to talking to you all upon my return! xo
Currently: Stressing about packing for China, watching a little Entourage to make me feel better!